
Now that she is really talking, it has become very evident to me what a challenge my/our crazy schedule poses for Adelaide. She clearly prefers to have everyone home together, or even better, to go out on adventures together. On the flip side, she has a constant level of concern about which of us might leave at any moment. Multiple times every day, especially on weekends, she askes "Mom go?" and shakes her head, "home" ... "Dad home? Go? Ada go?" We review who is staying home and who is "going" and whether they are going to work (us) or to school (her). If anything changes, especially if anyone puts on shoes or changes clothes, we go through it again, "Dad go?" (shaking head), "home"; "Ada?". I've been working lots of night shifts, so her evening time radar is high. If I get up from the dinner table without warning, she says, "Mom work? No. Home." It must be so confusing for her that every day is different, without a pattern. She gets picked up and dropped off by 3 different people, at different times every day, by bike trailer if I take her and otherwise by car, and I can see her little brain trying to so hard to make sense of the pattern, to find regularity in the chaos. Welcome to my life, Adelaide, the only consistency is inconsistency! It won't be too long until she can read a calendar, and then we'll have to get her one of her own so she can keep tabs on who goes where and when. Until then, we'll just keep up the dialogue. Dad home. Ada home. Mom go.